Yesterday morning at 5.35am,my grandmother departed this world to live in a better place.
She passed away of a heart failure at the age of 77 after breathing difficulties.
It was so sudden.
A little too sudden.
Its not very nice to wake up receiving a piece of news that your one of your loved ones has passed away.
Upon hearing the news,i went to school for 1 hour before deciding that i should see Grandma for one last time.
I left school and raced home,changed,and went down to the funeral.
My two aunties and one uncle (all Grandma's children)
Were in Thailand at the time of her passing.
They immediately booked the 1pm flight back.
Upon reaching the funeral,they broke down.
One of my aunties even said,
"Why did you go when we're away?"
She had teary eyes for the rest of the day.
As for my mother who was working,
She carried on working and came down only at 3.
I'm proud of my mum.
As she actually can work when her mother passed away.
She didn't want to dissapoint her customers.
When my mum went to see Grandma,
I went along as i was afraid my mum would collapse as she is not very well.
Just by standing beside her,
I could feel her sorrow.
I held back my tears.
My mum's face slowly beagn to sadden and she teared.
My mum was always the one who put in more effort to take care of Grandma,
She would go to her house,
Whether it was at Yishun last time or Sengkang now,
From my house in Jurong.
She brought her back to my house as she was afraid that there was nobody around to take care of my grandma.
And my cheeky late Grandma,despite receiving orders from my mum that she cannot take sweet drinks,
Would go downstairs to the convienience store and buy a 1.5L bottle of Carrot Juice,
And hide it deep inside the fridge to prevent my mum from knowing.
My little cousin,3 years old,
Was told that Grandma was 'sleeping'.
But after awhile,he asked why Grandma didn't wake up.
He cried and asked for Grandma to wake up.
Just a mere two weeks ago,i had a family dinner with my aunties and Grandma.
Now,she's no longer in this _____world.
Thats a good thing,Grandma.
You will now be free from frustration and sorrow.
The angels will sing melodies for you.
Leave this world peacefully,Grandma.
As i was 10 years younger than my next older cousin,
I never really spent much time with Grandma.
From the stories my cousin told me just now,
Grandma would go and bring my cousins to her house,
And on the way she would ask my cousins to get anythign they wanted,
And she would pay for them.
As my cousins used to call each other fat,
Grandma developed a saying,
"You yourself fat still call other people fat."
By the time i had grown up,
Grandma was partially deaf and,thus,
We never really could communicate.
I would hug her occasionally,
But i never thought that i would not be able to hug her anymore so soon.
I gave her money when i got pay,
Or when i won form gambling.
That was the least i can do.
I know that Grandma really wants to spend time with me,
But she can't.
I would really have wanted to have a good relationship with Grandma,
But it couldn't happen.
I remembered once when she was staying at my house,
She fell down in the toilet and needed help to get up.
I was at home,
But i was taking a nap at that time.
I am so guilty,
Why did i have to take a nap at that time?
I hate myself for not being able to show you that i'm a fillial grandson,Grandma.
Today,
I will forever remember Grandma,
As a Diamond,
That was unable shine for me but i would still try my best to polish it.
I miss you already,Grandma.
I love you.
In Loving Memory,
Chan Lily
1931-2008
She passed away of a heart failure at the age of 77 after breathing difficulties.
It was so sudden.
A little too sudden.
Its not very nice to wake up receiving a piece of news that your one of your loved ones has passed away.
Upon hearing the news,i went to school for 1 hour before deciding that i should see Grandma for one last time.
I left school and raced home,changed,and went down to the funeral.
My two aunties and one uncle (all Grandma's children)
Were in Thailand at the time of her passing.
They immediately booked the 1pm flight back.
Upon reaching the funeral,they broke down.
One of my aunties even said,
"Why did you go when we're away?"
She had teary eyes for the rest of the day.
As for my mother who was working,
She carried on working and came down only at 3.
I'm proud of my mum.
As she actually can work when her mother passed away.
She didn't want to dissapoint her customers.
When my mum went to see Grandma,
I went along as i was afraid my mum would collapse as she is not very well.
Just by standing beside her,
I could feel her sorrow.
I held back my tears.
My mum's face slowly beagn to sadden and she teared.
My mum was always the one who put in more effort to take care of Grandma,
She would go to her house,
Whether it was at Yishun last time or Sengkang now,
From my house in Jurong.
She brought her back to my house as she was afraid that there was nobody around to take care of my grandma.
And my cheeky late Grandma,despite receiving orders from my mum that she cannot take sweet drinks,
Would go downstairs to the convienience store and buy a 1.5L bottle of Carrot Juice,
And hide it deep inside the fridge to prevent my mum from knowing.
My little cousin,3 years old,
Was told that Grandma was 'sleeping'.
But after awhile,he asked why Grandma didn't wake up.
He cried and asked for Grandma to wake up.
Just a mere two weeks ago,i had a family dinner with my aunties and Grandma.
Now,she's no longer in this _____world.
Thats a good thing,Grandma.
You will now be free from frustration and sorrow.
The angels will sing melodies for you.
Leave this world peacefully,Grandma.
As i was 10 years younger than my next older cousin,
I never really spent much time with Grandma.
From the stories my cousin told me just now,
Grandma would go and bring my cousins to her house,
And on the way she would ask my cousins to get anythign they wanted,
And she would pay for them.
As my cousins used to call each other fat,
Grandma developed a saying,
"You yourself fat still call other people fat."
By the time i had grown up,
Grandma was partially deaf and,thus,
We never really could communicate.
I would hug her occasionally,
But i never thought that i would not be able to hug her anymore so soon.
I gave her money when i got pay,
Or when i won form gambling.
That was the least i can do.
I know that Grandma really wants to spend time with me,
But she can't.
I would really have wanted to have a good relationship with Grandma,
But it couldn't happen.
I remembered once when she was staying at my house,
She fell down in the toilet and needed help to get up.
I was at home,
But i was taking a nap at that time.
I am so guilty,
Why did i have to take a nap at that time?
I hate myself for not being able to show you that i'm a fillial grandson,Grandma.
Today,
I will forever remember Grandma,
As a Diamond,
That was unable shine for me but i would still try my best to polish it.
I miss you already,Grandma.
I love you.
In Loving Memory,
Chan Lily
1931-2008
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1:56 AM
